Crazy, I don't feel any older. Bu8t then again, I don't usually on my birthday. I usually feel older when I am silly, like for example, Sunday morning, I felt very old. But I did party maybe too hard Saturday night at my friends. like till 4:30am. What was I thinking? I definitely felt old Sunday morning, like maybe 100. moved about that fast too!
This year,I have really enjoyed. I found that I was carving out better lifelong friendships, cutting loose of those that really just don't fit. I am starting to make fun relationships with students I have been meeting and teaching to over the years. LOVE these memories. It always makes leaving my family easier! Making more time for my family and still continuing to be in love with what I am doing in life.
I started taking way more selfies & instagrams, weird for me. But I found, I love looking back at them and giggling. It's awesome remembering the moments or the haircuts, or the fun times with my kids, or just anything. I thought at one point I didn't want too many pics since I wasn't the "size" I wanted to be or what I once was. But then I realized, WTF? I'm having a great time right now, why sit and wish for something else. I better learn to like myself like this in case I don't change. Still besties with my 2 lifelong friends Jody & Natalie. (sadly Natalie hasn't posed for pics for years, I should tackle her down and take like one or a million!!!!!
I cut 16 inches off my hair a year ago, probably the biggest change I have ever done in my life. I only can remember one other time that my hair was this short. And you know what? I LOVE it! Some days I want shorter, some days I want my long hair back (not often though...)
you know my favourite selfies EVER? haircut day! I love the feeling of being fresh again! I 4 hr window of time where I can escape. And you know what? I know I look like a freak, but it won't change how I feel after these babies come out. LOVE LOVE LOVE!
I still rock out to tunes loud in my car, my house, when I am getting ready everywhere! If I want to be productive or get ready for the night, you know my metal bands come out. Motlye Crue, Def Lepard, Journey, etc. Always takes me back tosome of my **MOST FAVOURITE MOMENTS EVER**. Isn't it funny like that? Certain songs instantly remind me of people or places or events. Love those times. Even the douche bags I dated have songs, but funny enough when I hear them, I can still smile remembering the times, and then thinking WHAT WAS I THINKING???? Mistakes, they are made to remember years later! lol.
But that being said, if I want to calm down or totally relax, I listen to Last of the Mohicans soundtrack or "The Prayer in all my favourite versions. I'm a freak.
I found that this year was my favourite with my family so far. The kids are getting older. They are really developing their personalities, their styles, their little "uniqueness". Jim has been doing way crazier things with them then normal, and really challenged them to try more things, be braver and let's do more as a family. I found that this year, I fell in love with Jim even harder than I always have been. Man he is just a great guy! Maybe that's how you can tell I am getting older, I really look at him like I will spend the rest of my life even till the senior's home with him. I love you Jim!
But you know it really is amazing when you realize how in love you are with your life. I always knew I wanted kids, never even thought anything different. Of course I would have kids, most likely four. I can't believe how happy and fulfilled these kids make me. I always choose to spend as much time with them as possible.
Guess this year brings another year of adventures, hospital visits, sports, travel, and love, lot's of love. I'm a sap, but I just love to love. and make out. Yes I said it. But it's my birthday, thought I'd see what I could get away with.
Love you guys, thanks for checking out my long post!